She had set up an entire account dedicated to making fun of me online. The whole school knew about it except for me. She continued to pretend to be my friend for several months until my friend Gavin who turned out to be my true friend, told me the whole thing. That she had taken every quirk, difference and embarrassing story I told her and shared it with not only the entire school but the entire world.
The same thing was happening to a very good friend of mine who had Asperger’s Syndrome as well. His name was Todd He knew about it from the start and was tormented day in and out by Abby. She tormented him even worse than me. She had pretended she was his girlfriend and then laughed in his face in front of the whole cafeteria full of kids. As she told him, “I would never like a freak like you” He felt that there was no other way to escape his torture than by ending his own life. I feel guilty about that to this day. Maybe if I was subjected to the torture like he was, I could have helped him see the light into an otherwise bleak situation. My mother had instilled in me at an early age that no one can hurt you unless you let them hurt you.
She told me that no matter how awful your situation seems today, remember that every storm cloud has a silver lining. Maybe if I could have helped give my friend Todd some hope for tomorrow he would be with us today. Now you’re probably wonder what I did differently. What helped me to not cave in to despair and end my life just like my friend Todd. What kept me from ending my life was my family and my faith.
I never even thought that suicide was an option to ending the ridicule I received on a regular basis. My family always told me that I was their greatest gift. That it is boring to be the same. Differences are what add color to an otherwise blank canvas. To all of you reading this, to all of you who are going through similar situations don’t let despair consume you. It is okay to be different. It is wonderful to be different!
It has been scientifically proven that those who don’t fit a mold or blend in with the crowd are much more successful than their peers. Even though my parents helped me with this tough situation, I was the one who had to bear this cross. I kept believing that tomorrow would be better. That my persecutors would get their just desserts. I had to believe that or my soul would have been crushed.
I know what it feels like to have your soul crushed to the very core. Rock bottom sucks but rock bottom gives you even ground to rise from. So I was mocked to my face and behind my back at least they had a good subject. Even the most famous of actors realize that bad publicity is still publicity. You don’t have to feel like you are alone anymore. Even if you feel like you have no one to talk to, find someone.
A pastor or religious leader is a good start. I had every devious trick played on me by my peers other than spitting in my face. They would even mock me as I hid in the stalls crying and purging myself so that I could have the nurse send me home. To this day I am afraid to use a urinal out of fear of being attacked. I may not have experienced what you are going through a lot has changed in the last eight years in public school. Kids keep coming up with new and horrific ways to vilify the different and unpopular. Realize that you are loved, you have a family who loves and cares for you.
Today I have several friends of different ages, colors, and creeds. I thank God everyday for rescuing me from the waking nightmare I was living. At least the nightmares in my sleep could not really hurt me. I was blessed with a great self-esteem so even when someone would tell me to my face what a demented freak I was, I did not care, I knew that I was destined for greater things than a school classroom.
Today I have a college degree under my belt, I speak English, Japanese, and Spanish, and after years of therapy can converse effectively in any situation. You can have happiness too. You have such a bright future ahead of you. I am blessed because I choose to survive and prove every one of my enemies wrong. The minute you are free from the a school system your life will instantly change for the better.
You will never see the people who did unspeakable horrors to you any more. They are out of your life forever. On my graduation day I felt like the entire world was lifted off of my shoulders. I never had to see any of these people ever again. I actually slept soundly for the first time in forever.
I did not have a single nightmare that night either. I am telling you this story to give you hope. Do not let your peers make you feel hopeless. I want all of you who go to school to know that you are in school for only a short time but your tormentors and peers will have a lifetime to pay for what they did to their classmates.
In conclusion, you may feel like you are never going to be free from the ridicule and torment. That there is no light at the end of the tunnel. You are so wrong. You are thinking like someone in school. That the whole world revolves around the school system.
That is simply not the case. There are millions of Americans who never stepped foot into a school ever again after graduation. Most never see their former peers again. You are going to be fine. There is always hope for a brighter tomorrow. Just keep moving forward. The rise of Aspies Being Bullied and Tormented does not have to continue. Bullying may start with someone else but it can end with you.
Parents, tell your children how valuable they are and how there is a world outside of their school. Show your children places other than just their small view of the world. Take them to museums and cities. Give them hope. Help them find friends outside of school.
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The rise of Aspies Being Bullied and Tormented and How to Make it Stop